Captain's Corner

So yesterday was Easter and it was phenomenal… but I’m not going to talk about that right now. I’m going to talk about the three weeks leading up to it. They were crazy. And I don’t mean looney bin crazy, I mean M.C. Escher meets Stephen Hawkins crazy (I’m pretty sure I worked 28 hours one day and yet still had time to catch about 6 hours of sleep and watch a movie… see what I mean?). Anyway, I toured the beautiful north eastern part of our country, and edited ad infinitum. Did I mention my wife is 7 months pregnant and was diagnosed with gestational diabetes during this time? It’s not surprising I forgot, since I didn’t see much of her (or my two pathetic dogs who apparently laid by the door whining all this time).

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining… Seriously, I didn’t mind. Twice a year I have it rough… not like my friend Jeff who runs his own coffee shop (Texas Roast, if you haven’t tried it, you should!), who works 14-16 hour days every day. So I really don’t mind the long hours, and I loved the hectic traveling and shooting… that was a blast.

But the point of all this is that I really, really missed my wife. Most nights she was in bed fast asleep when I got home, and I generally slept through her getting up and leaving in the morning (except for when I got up and left before her…). So it wasn’t long before I started getting a little grumpy. Now, to my credit, I tried to belay some of my grumpiness with humor… but that doesn’t always work. So, like all the other times I’ve found myself longing for my wife’s companionship, I found solace in a song. This time it was “In Your Eyes” by the great Peter Gabriel. Previous songs used for this purpose have been Bob Dylan’s “Man in Me”, Ozzy Osbourne’s “Mama, I’m Comin’ Home”, Golden Earring’s “Radar Love” and the Foo Fighter’s “Miracle”. But this isn’t about those songs, it’s about “In Your Eyes”. The song talks about utter longing and a completeness found only in the source of that longing. Listening to it, made me realize that while I’m a talented and sometimes humorous fellow, with out the woman that God gave me and created for me, I’m only a fraction of what I am meant to be. She is not my everything, nor the totality of my world, for only God can be that… but she is one of the most important and integral parts of my life, and I can’t stand who I am without her. But enough of my babbling, here’s the complete lyrics to the song:

Love, I get so lost sometimes
Days pass, and this emptiness fills my heart
When I want to run away
I drive off in my car
But whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are

All my instincts, they return
And the grand facade so soon will burn
Without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

In your eyes
the light the heat
In your eyes
I am complete
In your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
In your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
In your eyes
Oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light, the heat I see in your eyes

Love, I don’t like to see so much pain
So much wasted, and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

And all my instincts, they return
And the grand facade so soon will burn
Without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

In your eyes
the light the heat
In your eyes
I am complete
In your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
In your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
In your eyes
Oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light, the heat I see in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes

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